The act of forgiveness healed the anger and hurt I suffered in a horrific tragedy.
Because of the act of forgiveness, I was able to forgive the drunk man who physically assaulted me in public..
I cannot go into too much detail because the case is currently still pending.
Coming home from work exhausted, I decided to go a mini market store a couple of minutes away from my house to pick up something for my grandmother. After I parked my car and exited my vehicle, I proceeded towards the store. As I reached over to open the door, two males slowly strolled out simultaneously.
Let’s call them “Lucifer and Freddie Krueger” LOL…
Because they were blocking the entrance for me to enter the store, I politely
said excuse me to the two males. Krueger shifts to the left; but Lucifer ignores me and resumes to block the entrance with an evil smirk on his face.
(I’m thinking oh lord, not today! I am so damn tired. I just want to go home and sleep)
Again I politely said, “Excuse me sir, you are blocking my entrance to go into the store. Lucifer shouted “You are not going anywhere! I’m not letting you in.” Krueger quickly whispered “Don’t mind my friend, he’s really drunk”.
I was always taught to simply walk away during any escalated argument, due to the fact that conditions can rapidly turn dangerous. As I backed up to begin to walk away, Lucifer snatches my arm. I immediately yanked away and yelled stop! I never been SO SHOCKED in my life!! (Mind you Krueger continues to stare in silence). Lucifer then howled, ” I can do whatever I want’ , while touching my hair. My reflexes caused me to quickly jerk backwards, and cover my head with my hands to protect myself.
THAT’S WHEN ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE.
Lucifer literally went from 0 to 100 in a second. It felt like I was staring into a soul of a demon. My whole life flashed in front of my eyes.
Instantly, I violently was snatched and slammed against the glass wall of the store.
As my attacker aggressively tries to pull my hair out of my scalp, we both tripped over a garbage can, stumbling onto the ground. At this point, he is on top of me, still pulling my hair continuously. I took two violent blows to the head and jaw. What made crap worse was that everyone just stopped, stood there and stared. (All were grown males by the way) NO ONE EVEN BOTHERED TO HELP ME!!!! Okay let’s play devil’s advocate. What if the male who is currently attacking me had a weapon on him and you did not want take the chances of getting hurt?
THE LEAST YOU COULD HAVE DONE WAS CALL THE POLICE!
Luckily for me, I know how to defend myself. (Thank you lord for my brothers!) Now, fighting back and blocking the rest of his punches, I kicked him off of me. Lucifer flies in the air and hits the ground. (Squatting at the gym has finally done me justice LOL). Promptly jumping myself up to my feet, I quickly pulled out my phone to dial 911. While his drunk stumbling ass tries to get up, Krueger in a panic yells “She’s calling the cops get in the car!!!!”. Lucifer and Krueger both jumped into there car and sped off.
Long story short, the cops finally arrived. I gave a written statement and was told I will be notified once they found him.
A MONTH later, I received a call from a state prosecutor stating he has been charged with a misdemeanor battery and offered him a plea deal 6-month probation and an anger management class. (Basically a slap on the wrist).
I WAS FURIOUS!
I couldn’t understand how someone can just receive a slap on the wrist, with an extensive record of various offences such as Felony Cruelty Toward Child and seven misdemeanors. The state prosecutor did not even know Lucifer lives two blocks away from my home!!! (Thanks to Google finding out the location of his residence).
When I hung up, I legit was having a panic attack. I am very caring, compassionate, kindhearted individual, so I didn’t understand why was this all happening to me? Why do I feel like my case is not being taken seriously? What is the universe trying to tell me?
Finally, one day after gazing vividly amongst the soft blue sky, I received my answer.
I did not do anything wrong. I believe that the universe had put me there on purpose in that exact moment for a reason. LOL I’m not a small girl. I am 5’7 and 160lbs. Had I not known how to defend myself and was a little smaller, it may have ended worst. Lucifer could have done that to any random person, god forbid that individual being attack did not know how to defend themselves. They would have seriously gotten injured.
As I sat down in my patio, the cool crisp air filled my lungs. The lukewarm rays of the luminous yellow sun pierced right through my wounded soul. Suddenly, that heavy ton brick glued to my chest slowly lifted.
I was now at peace.
I prayed for Lucifer. I prayed for his family. I prayed for his children. I prayed for love to enter his heart and to remove the veil of any anger or pain masking his heart. I prayed he receives help to overcome his mistakes and not let the troubles of his past define who he is as a person.
I forgave Lucifer.
One of my favorite quotes: “Unforgiveness unchecked becomes a cancer of the soul.”
Forgiveness does not mean you have to accept the malicious behavior that was done to you. Forgiveness to me means letting go and releasing the pain, the anger, the grudge, to disallow the captivity of an imprisoned soul. I realized that the anger and rage that I was densely holding onto, was essentially holding me back. That negative energy clogged my heart, experiencing more pain than good. Forgiveness was the medicine which healed my soul and permitted myself to remain at peace, prohibiting Lucifer’s detrimental actions affect how I live in the present moment.
All in all, believe me, it was harder said than done. There was couple of times where I was reliving the past being assaulted by Lucifer; but soon after, I quickly prohibited the flow of negativity, rescinding the torment I held within. It is a process that does take time, but at the end YOU WILL BE OKAY. Hopefully this post will help surmount any pain and anger you might be experiencing currently. I will pray for your peace and serenity.
How did you get over the anger that was caused by an individual? Do you believe in the act of forgiveness? Feel free to share your thoughts 🙂 I love you guys!
P.S. Lucifer turned down the plea deal (I mean with that record, who wouldn’t take that plea deal? SMH), which now transfer the case to trial. If you can, keep myself in your prayers.
Oh Ladies and gents, please carry pepper spray on you AT ALL TIMES LOL.
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